Post-seiyuu of Love Live! he revealed that he has alcoholism and attempted suicide

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Through his personal blog, the retired singer and voice actor Maho Matsunaga she revealed that she has alcoholism problems and injured her spinal cord, which left her with paralyzed legs. Maho Matsunaga Apparently, he sees things positively, as it ensures that his current condition prevents him from continuing to drink alcohol.

Write her full testimony:

  • Life keeps turning big. It was only after I discovered the disease that I realized this. The alcoholism. I was hospitalized twice as an alcoholic. The alcoholic is not what we usually hear from alcoholics; Drunkenness is a beautiful thing, as social networks call it. It is not acute alcoholism either. It is a disease of the brain.
  • You can’t stop halfway saying I have to stop here because it is a brain disease. If you drink, you will stay drinking until you die. It’s basically impossible for people to come in and stop. They look like a normal drinker. The alcoholic creates an evil aura that people cannot come close to when the level is too high.
  • When I found myself lying in my own room screaming ‘argh’ with no memory of the last two days. I do not remember anyone coming to my room. I had just bought alcohol at the nearest Don Quixote and had drunk it, and when it was over, I went to buy more. I kept on doing that. I have had many frightening experiences with this disease. I can’t even taste a few drinks. Even cooking with wine scares me. Once you get your hands on it, you can’t go back. I don’t want red wine in my beef stew.
  • They may be in a store they do not know, in a train station they do not know, in a place they do not know, why? They are protected in places they do not know. It’s pretty complicated because I also have a personality disorder. So the one I trust the least is myself. In recent years, alcoholism has been slowly spreading, as there is a rumor that some celebrities are alcoholics or publicly advertised, but it is still seen as an invisible disability.
  • I could not see it, it was very difficult. It’s not illegal to drink alcohol, but if you go to a party where it’s fun to drink together and order oolong tea, you’re feeling out of place. That’s how I caught myself. So I left for places that looked fun. I decided to stay completely in the dark. I blocked all the friends who invited me. That’s how I started locking myself up; it’s just lonely. Whenever I hear and hear from people, I say unconsciously “do not leave me alone”.
  • But I also chose to be alone. It was painful and very sad. My future, which I had been waiting for, darkened, and there was nothing else I wanted to do. There were so many people talking to the music I liked and I ruined my headphones. I was very reluctant to post this, but it’s easy for alcoholics to get lonely. I decided to write about it in the hope that at least people with the same illness would empathize with each other if I recorded the process of my suffering in this way.
  • If you know someone who suffers from the same alcoholism as this writing, do not choose loneliness. There are links to healthcare and Alcoholics Anonymous. If you are like me, you can let off steam in places like that. However, now I have some relief. I jumped in a suicide attempt, which was left as an attempt, but I damaged my spinal cord, and both legs cannot move below the thighs.
  • Being in a wheelchair makes me cringe. It’s very difficult, but I can get a disability certificate, which I knew for a long time that I should apply because of my mental illness. Because of this my disability is a visible disability. And there are stairs and slopes outside the house: I can’t go out alone, I can’t go to the shop alone, I can’t go far, I can’t even take the train without help. As you can guess by now, I will not be able to go out and buy alcohol on my own.
  • They say orthopedic insoles will arrive next week to secure the calves and ankles. This will give me a sense of stability and allow me to walk around the house. Only inside the house, not outside. Even if I use Uber Eats, for example, I would eat at home, so I would not bother others. The more you lose, the more you win. The more you can do, the more you have to try the less you can. Because I have fallen to the ground. Maybe this is where real life begins.

Within her career as a voice actress, which ended in May 2016 when she retired from the industry, Maho Matsunaga small roles such as Erena Toudou in Love Live! Idol School ProjectKurumi Kashinoki i Kono Naka and Hitori, Imouto ga Iru!and Izumi Nijou into Saki Achiga-hen: Side-A Episodeto name a few.

Font: Maho Matsunaga Personal Blog

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